a rendezvous between me and me

Sitting on bed , under a quilt..i am confused like always..should i pick up my diary or this blog to write what i want to now. But i choose this because i want to remember my this part of life always..journals get lost and forgotten gradually. I am undergoing a life changing phase in my life...not because i am sick on bed and  heartbroken. Life changing because i have learnt some hard lessons in a really hard way. Like some things are not under your control however hard you try you just can not control them. So, for such things you should always keep yourself prepared and not take them too hard..and feel the way  i am doing now. And yup the most important thing is that you need to know yourself. In this hustle and bustle i have clearly forgotten myself and what i want ..i was running behind life..the way it was coming to me. I forgot that if i lose its saddle..then i'l have to gallop behind it to get its control and it surely will be very painful. So,what i need to do is to control life the way i want to and not to let it control me. I just hope that i get to know myself better and come out as a better person from this turmoil i have placed myself in. But remember amidst all of this.. whatever happens happens for the best.!!!